Living the sober life

For many years I wanted to stop drinking but always relied on someone else to help me do it. It seems like it was something that I could not overcome by myself. I went alcohol free for long period of time when I was in loving stable relationship but having the strength to do it as a recently single 30 year old was something else.

2018 brought its lot of disappointments and heartbreaks. When I moved out of my ex-boyfriends place to stay with a friend, I was lost, she did not know how to help me and most nights the only way to soothe the pain and fall asleep was to have a glass of wine. A bad habit that should have lasted only a few weeks. When I moved on my own I could not stand the loneliness and some nights I was still having wines to help me get through the nights. I kept telling people I was not a drinker but the reality was I was becoming one. I knew alcohol was impacting my health badly but it is only when I realised how bad it was affecting my relationships with others that I decided to put an end to it. Things escalated when I started hanging out with people that had zero interest in a healthy lifestyle and dedicated their weekends to partying. For a second, I lost myself and I thought maybe that “wellness” thing was not for me after all. Lucky I had my friends around who reminded me who I truly was. I realised I was just becoming whoever I was hanging out with. It was time to find myself again. It took me weeks to stand back up and going alcohol free was the step I needed to love myself again. My party years are long gone and I am at peace with that.

As I am writing this post I have not drank any alcohol in 42 days. I don’t feel the need to ever drink again. I don’t miss the hangovers, I don’t miss the drunk texting and I don’t miss waking up full of regrets. I know it might just have been a rough patch for me but it was scary enough to put me right back on the path I want to follow. Which is to thrive and be healthy, enjoying my free time doing what I am the most passionate about.

For those who wants to make the change, there are so many options of alcohol free beer out there! I also love drinking Kombucha in a wine glass. Don’t fear the peer pressure, you never know who you might inspire!

Have you ever questioned your relationship with alcohol? What are your thoughts?

I would love to hear from you.

The Wellness Lover

xxx