A Grateful Heart

Not too long ago, the thought of adding the word “grateful” to my vocabulary would have made me loathed.

I could not see how I could I have been thankful to any one else than myself for having made it to this day alive! Childhood trauma, chronic illness, countless heartbreaks, I was a soldier at war and I was grateful for none of it!

Well, change is somehow inevitable and it is a beautiful thing. I changed my lifestyle many years ago when I was diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis and I became an expert in addressing my internal health. Of course, I read countless self-help books, attended yoga and meditation classes but I knew deep inside I was not ready to address what was really going on in my head.
Unfortunately, health is not only about smashing down the green juice but also about addressing the mind.
My worst memory was going in a float tank to relax for an hour and realising I could not even be with my own thought for such a short time!

“ Change happens when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change ”

Tony Robbins

When I hit my rock bottom (back to few post ago) I knew I had to change the way I was living and the way I was viewing the world. I was missing a deep connection and I always thought I needed some drastic changes in my life. Only then I realised it is by the small acts that we add to our everyday routine that actually change our lives. It can be as easy as writing few things that you are grateful for everyday. Just like that, the doom and gloom of the world can take back its colors and lightened up your mood. There is always something to be grateful about even if it the smallest thing!

I used to push back my bed time. Same reason, I was scared to be alone with my thoughts. I can now recognize this pattern and instead of watching of 10th episode of a show on Netflix, I just go to bed and journal those thoughts instead or read.

When few month ago I lost pretty much everything that used to be my life, the universe had a weird way to work things out and for that I am grateful. We are not always served what we want but there is always a silver lining.

I now know that being grateful is not a trendy hashtag on Instagram but a simple way of life.

The Wellness Lover